i remember, a few months ago, when my life was a mess. i decided to stay away from things and study. just study and stabilize things. make things ok. i am good now but i feel boring. i feel like im too afraid to live now. to go out and have fun. by fear of messing up again or i dont know
it feels like i stopped REALLY FEELING. like my magic is gone. like i just… made my life boring so i would stop getting hurt and wouldnt fail again and just avoid pain.
couldnt sleep so now ill try once again
sweet dreams everyone